Pensive

As I hugged you with great aquiver, salty tears filled my eyes.

"Don't leave me please." I begged

"I won't but allow me some time."

You replied in the most mellifluous manner. I felt calm with your words but I still begged.

You pushed me like the greatest criminal caught red-handed. At that moment I wished that I'm the biggest convict for loving you ineffable as it seems. But things have changed with a single snap. And now I am in a hiraeth in a place to where I may have been moved; your heart. I am most nefarious to your mortal eyes, I know. But to any extent I will still save you my sincerest apology.

I'm sorry love. I did the worst. And no other words can desrcribe my grief of being the gultiest bastard alive. I hate feeling like a somnambulist whenever we're walking, you were my best dream, so please don't try to wake me up. If sleep walking is how I'll be with you, then I'll do it even in a thousand mile. I hope things in our epoch hadn't been destroyed by my stupid mistake. I will make it up to you, I promise.

"I love you." I muttered in my sonorious flat noted voice.

But you failed to reply by the least. I guess you're still hurt by what I did. I'll let you cool down for whatever time you need. But please don't ever leave me hanging. If it's by serendipity that you give me a chance, then I'll pray for that one shot of winning you back. I am not faithful. But that doesn't mean that I fell in limerence with another. You're still my better half.

As I sit here watching you from a distance, I can't seem to hear anything but the bombinate of mockings telling me how stupid I am for letting you down. You may not believe me right now, but baby I loved you in the most ethereal way I know. I bet someone who loves like this should be illicit.

I 'm sorry baby. And I will continue to utter those petty words until the whole region is covered with petrichor. It's currently raining from my insides. And I'm wishing a lot for it to stop. I need your iridescent version. Please be my brightest again?

Here's an epiphany. I realized now that when someone makes you feel this way, you shouldn't hurt them. You should always make sure that you don't let them go.

It's funny how it felt really nice being just supine next to you, just this morning. But now we're like two complete strangers-no, friends. And you know I don't want friends, I want us. Now I'm blinded. All my senses are blinded with supreme luminescence. I'm lonely. And alone. I want my solitude back, ours-I mean. I hope I get you back by the time Aurora comes. Because I can't manage to continue being like this.

Remember baby? We're the couple of syzygy. We're the greatest phosphenes alive. I wish for your oblivion, but that can't happen. You can't forget something like that. I can't promise you with the complete erasure of what I did, but I'll do my best to replace them with better ones. Ones where I am not related into being a scumbag. This may or may not be ephemeral. We'll get back. You're mad. And your incandescent body reflects.

Now this is the denouement of my fault. Blame me for everything and I will just let my guard down. I am wrong. I'm a bookworm in a state of vellichor. You're my library.

"I love you. Please take me back." I thought in eloquence.

I'm defenestrating right now. I may not give you the happiness to as winning to your favorite sport. But please, I want to give you the sonder of what I can improve in the next chapter.

I'm still your prince. I was never not.

I love you and I'm sorry. This is my sincerest.